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10 things I’m afraid of
| January 21, 2019 | Posted by Melinda under Uncategorized |
Have you heard that podcast where in each episode a person details the top 10 things they are afraid of? It’s funny, enlightening, and full “ME TOO!!!” moments. I wanted to join in the fun, so here’s my version of “the 10 things I’m most afraid of”. I’m writing these down in no particular order as they come to mind, which may reveal something about my fears all on its own!
- Looking into mirrors when it’s dark. Who knows what unexpected thing I might see? I either blame this on too many “Bloody Mary” school bathroom games, my cousin telling me scary stories or….is it a survival mechanism of my unconscious brain because the MIRROR IN THE DARK *IS* ACTUALLY A PORTAL TO SOMETHING ELSE???????
- Leaving an extremity such as a hand or foot outside of the covers at night. Even worse if it’s hanging off the bed over the floor. It just seems like a prime thing for *something* to grab it. This perhaps is why I’m so heat tolerant – 34 years of sleeping under the blankets no matter what the temperature.
- A cougar attacking me from behind while I’m running.
- Having something important to say and not being listened to.
- Being t-boned at an intersection and having a really bad car accident because some other asshat isn’t paying attention and runs a stop sign or a red light.
- Being hit head on in a car accident because someone is passing on a highway and isn’t paying attention or decides to cut it really really really close.
- Getting seriously hurt or injured doing an activity that I’m totally “meh” about, that then affects the rest of my life. I’m not risk-adverse, I just want it to count. If I take a risk it’s because I REALLY WANT TO DO THE THING, and am OK with the consequences if the statistically unlikely thing happens.
- Unfamiliar dogs that are behaving in an aggressive manner that are under poor control of their owner, or are behind inadequate fences.
- That when I eventually die I will not have left an impression on this world in some way.
- That others will define me and set limits on me because of something that I am intrinsically am by biology and circumstance instead of what my actual potential is.
I want to hear yours of course. Link your blog, or put in the comments.
I’d have to sit down and think about it to get the top ten, but the mirrors in the dark thing — SO hear you on that, and I totally blame way too many ‘Bloody Mary’ horror stories when I was young coupled with an overly active imagination.
1. Bugs on me when I’m indoors.
2. Yes to the hand and foot outside the covers!
3. My husband dying young.
4. Bankruptcy
5. The dark. Or what I imagine about the dark.
All I can think of for now.
I appreciate your honesty and bravery.
You will love your CRV. I bought one brand new in 2014 right after vet school, when that seemed like a very imprudent decision. We paid it off early and I still very much love and adore it. It has 80k miles and not a single issue so far. Enjoy!
I think you’re so smart for being productive on your mandated “vacation”. You inspire me.
😉
Heidi
I really debated putting your number four on my list but in the end had something else for ten things that scared me more.
I can’t believe I forgot out flying scratchy bugs on me. Wanna see me have a legit instant panic attack? Throw some hornets my decision.
So good to hear about your CRV. So far i REALLY love it. More than any other car I ever driven !
1. Black windows at night, when you are backlit.
2. Bugs getting on me (except for honeybees, honeybees can land on me anytime they want, unless this happen to be angry at the time.)
3. Dogs that bark, growl, or look at me wrong.
4. Cows and horses and stuff that pay attention to me when I am in their pasture.
5. Bears.
6. Calling people on the telephone.
7. Precipices.
8. Accidentally hurting or killing someone.
9. Being trapped in a car underwater.
10. Getting nauseous and having to throw up.
1. Fish
2. Low flying air craft at night
3. Getting paralyzed in a horse fall
4. Rearing
5. Loved ones getting in car accidents
6. War coming here
7. Being a passenger in pretty much any non-car vehicle (I’m fine driving… it’s a control issue)
8. Venomous snakes
9. Spiders and centipedes
10. Flying (not the tin can in the air part… the hundreds of other people in the tin can with me part)
1. Complete and total financial ruin that results in me having to sell off all of my animals.
2. My house burning down (long-standing fear resulting from a series of nightmares as a very small child).
3. Someone breaking into my house at night.
4. Losing ALL of my photos.
5. Getting stung by the buck moth caterpillar again…some of the worst fucking pain of my life happened from the first time.
6. Falling and smashing my teeth out – especially when rock climbing.
7. One of my dogs getting run over by a vehicle.
8. Falling down a flight of stairs and becoming seriously injured.
9. Getting bitten by a copperhead while rock climbing one day since they tend to hide in the nooks and crannies of rock faces.
10. Becoming trapped underground in a cave during a routine cave survey for bats.
Dude, your fears are all so scary because they are so LOGICAL. Like all that COULD HAPPEN (but won’t, because you are a calculated risk taker who is a bad ass and the odds are in your favor).
I don’t have 10, but I want to get at least my #1 off my chest since you mention the dark mirrors. My #1 also shows how even an adult goes to ridiculous extremes to comfort themselves.
1. I am terrified of the hallway that goes from my bathroom to the bedroom. At night when there’s no lights on. I’m okay in the bathroom, I’m okay once my foot hits the bedroom, but not the 8′ hallway between. However, I “discovered” how I could be safe. It turns out that as long as I flush the toilet, and it is STILL flushing during my entire walk down the hallway, I’m safe. If the toilet stops, I am vulnerable (to what?). We are remodelling that bathroom right now. How do I explain to my SigOther that we cannot get a modern quick-flushing toilet??
2. Falling on ice
3. Falling down stairs
When I was a kid, we had a long dark hallway that was created when we added on to our small, older house. All of us, maybe even mom, were afraid in there, and we usually ran when we went through there.
Whew, glad to know I’m not the only one with a hallway phobia! Now that you brought this up, I remember running thru the hallway in my childhood home too, so I’ll bet that’s where it started. But I’m going to guess that you are now an adult, and you are no longer afraid of a dark hallway. I am…
KT – I have a plug in night light in my hall way….I tell myself its for guests, but darn if I don’t replace it IMMEDIATELY if it ever goes out.
Oh my goodness you bring back memories of dark spaces and the mental games I played. I dont consider myself superstitious at all but I’ve done things similar to the flushing toilet thing and its seems so logical in my brain. Thank you so much for sharing!!!!!!